Howdy all! Ever have those days when you wished that life had a skip ahead button like your favorite MP3 player? Yeah, I'm having one of those. Sadly, there isn't anything specifically bad. Just a BLAH! kind of day, if you follow me.
To be honest, I've not really been feeling the best about my writing goals and such as of late, and I think that has something to do with it. I've been 'working' at this writing stuff for awhile--not forever, but long enough to know that I've attempted something. And lately, I'm not really feeling any closer to what I set out to accomplish a few years ago.
As a goal oriented person I don't mind telling you that kind of freaking drives me crazy.
I have family and friends that know this is what I dream of doing, and that it's what I squirrel away hours of my life working at. I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel at least a little pressure from that. That's part of the reason I made it known in the first place. To create pressure. To create urgency. After all, we've all known those people who write and no one even knows it, and they never work at it because they don't REALLY have anything at stake. Right? Still, it's a little deflating when they ask me when I'll have something in print that they can read.
I take that as code for: What exactly have you been doing with your time?
Anywho, I'm not writing this as a boohoo, or a "I'm giving up". I've got perspective. This isn't a race, it's a marathon. etc., etc., etc. :0) I've got tough skin. I'll read something inspiring in the form of an old favorite book, or perhaps one of your blog posts *wink* *nudge*, and I'll be right back on the crazy train of writerly aspirations. However, it has got me to thinking about my vision of success. Maybe that's what is out of whack.
Maybe I'm so focused on what I THINK writing success means to me that it has taken some of the joy out of it all.
So I ask you, readers great and small, what are your terms for writerly success? Does it ever run away from you? If so, how do you reign it in? How do you get your mind off of the big picture and back on the page?